The Heart

The Heart
The Heart is an audio art project and podcast about intimacy and humanity.

Swelter: A Dream
Jul 1 • 21 min
What would you sound like if no one ever told you that’s all a woman could be? Part 1 of a 3-part summer series. “The reallotment of material resources is going to be the only thing that will save us.” - Yocheved Zenaida Cohen Listen to Fuck U Pay Us and…
Race Traitor: betray white fathers
Jun 17 • 30 min
Phoebe has an idea of a white race traitor: someone who makes personal sacrifices for the betterment of humanity. Someone whose actions halt the patterns of white supremacy. She goes looking for one and meets Stephanie Hofeller. Part 4 of a 4 part series.…
Race Traitor: what makes a mom a white mom?
Jun 3 • 37 min
All parents shape our identities. Phoebe’s affluent white parents made a particular set of choices to raise her in an all-white neighborhood with a sordid history. Phoebe investigates what she inherited as a result. Part 3 of a 4 part series. Produced by…
Race Traitor: can we be friends?
May 20 • 32 min
In a community with a strict “no new white friends” policy, Phoebe asks: how does my being white affect our relationship? Part 2 of a 4 part series. Produced by Phoebe Unter, edited by Sharon Mashihi and hosted by Kaitlin Prest. Featuring Nicole Kelly &…
Race Traitor: who taught you to be white?
May 6 • 29 min
Phoebe is surprised to learn that even she, an angry Jewish dyke, still participates in upholding white supremacy culture. Part 1 of a 4 part series. Produced by Phoebe Unter, edited by Sharon Mashihi and hosted by Kaitlin Prest.
Every Happy Ending Is Normative
Apr 22 • 27 min
So what’s the point of a crush? This episode was produced by Nicole Kelly, with anise cinquepalmi. anise is a poet teaching in Los Angeles. Find her writing workshop info on Instagram by following @bashfulhole.
Mardi Gras Is a State of Mind
Apr 8 • 18 min
What can a body do? This episode was produced by Mara Lazer & hosted by Kaitlin Prest.
Divesting From People Pleasing: Affirmation
Mar 25 • 53 min
In the final episode of the Divesting From People Pleasing season, NK talks with her friends & Dr. Thema Bryant-Davis about some of the things that surround her personal narrative. This episode was produced by Nicole Kelly & hosted by Kaitlin Prest.
Asking For It
Mar 11 • 26 min
Meet Goldie. The cycle begins, in episode 1 of Asking For It, a new fictional series from Mermaid Palace.
Divesting From People Pleasing: Memory
Feb 26 • 30 min
When trauma is held in the individual and collective body, shame, grief, and rage are passed down for generations. Part 3 of a 3 part series. Divesting From People Pleasing is a mini series produced by Nicole Kelly, edited by Chiquita Paschal, and hosted…
Divesting From People Pleasing: Power
Feb 12 • 37 min
The body has information. Part 2 of a 3 part series. Divesting From People Pleasing is a mini series produced by Nicole Kelly, edited by Chiquita Paschal, and hosted by Kaitlin Prest.
Divesting From People Pleasing: Threat
Jan 29 • 30 min
As NK gets older, she gets smaller, she gets more and more quiet. But the self loathing voice in her head just gets louder. Part 1 of a 3 part series. Divesting From People Pleasing is a mini series produced by Nicole Kelly, edited by Chiquita Paschal,…
Lesbian Separatism Is Inevitable
Jan 15 • 27 min
How NK & Phoebe fell in art love.
We’re Back
Jan 6 • 14 min
After a long break, The Heart is starting up again. Since we left, the world has changed. And we’ve changed too. At the core of the new Heart are artists Nicole Kelly and Phoebe Unter. Phoebe and NK started making a podcast called bitchface in 2016. They…
Mermaid Palace
Oct 28, 2019 • 14 min
Named after the very bedroom within which many of the episodes of The Heart were made. In this ep you heard the singing of Sharon Mashihi and phone answering of Mooj Zadie. The manifesto writing of Nicole Kelly and Phoebe Unter, the mic meandering of…
Love Me: To My Heart
Dec 4, 2018 • 30 min
Our friends Cristal Duhaime and Mira Burt-Wintonick launched Season 3 of their amazing show LOVE ME. The story we are featuring from them is about a man who learned all about love while imprisoned at Guantanamo Bay. Website:…
It’s Here: The Shadows
Oct 10, 2018 • 21 min
It’s here. Finally. All 6 episodes of The Shadows, presented by Kaitlin Prest and CBC Podcasts. Subscribe to The Shadows. Follow on Insta / Twitter at @theshadowscbc. You can find our FB group here.
KP + CBC Present: The Shadows
Aug 29, 2018 • 5 min
~* Things are happening. *~ The Shadows, presented by Kaitlin Prest and CBC Podcasts, launches in late September. Here’s a sneak peek. Subscribe to The Shadows –> here.
Dec 19, 2017 • 29 min
Kaitlin has a dream, and The Heart says goodbye (for now). Listen on headphones.
An Announcement
Dec 8, 2017 • 14 min
In 2018, The Heart will be taking a break.
Man Choubam (I Am Good)
Dec 6, 2017 • 46 min
Sharon is a weirdo.
God + The Gays
Nov 22, 2017 • 37 min
Phoebe was a Jesus kid.
Signature Research
Nov 7, 2017 • 11 min
I still hear his voice. [Trigger Warning]
Oct 24, 2017 • 25 min
Darqness: where techno, party, and, protest all meet in one beautiful, sweaty night.
A Woman on the Road is Alone
Oct 10, 2017 • 23 min
A hitchhiked trip to Vegas and women with agency doing whatever the F they want.
Bodies: Goddess
Sep 19, 2017 • 22 min
How Maria R Palacios became a woman.
Bodies: Itch
Sep 5, 2017 • 19 min
Cassie has an itch.
Bodies: Meat
Aug 22, 2017 • 43 min
Jonathan Zenti is fat.
Bodies: It’s not me it’s you
Aug 8, 2017 • 25 min
When penetrative sex is painful or impossible.
People Who Need People
Jul 10, 2017 • 25 min
A re-release of ‘Samara + Kelsey’ with a life / wife update.
Doing Time
Jun 20, 2017 • 15 min
This story is part of Radiotopia’s network-wide theme, Doing Time. In the early 2000’s, Kathleen reads through the personal ads of a magazine; on a whim, she writes to a man. Thus begins a relationship with the greatest love of her life. ‘Private family…
No: Questions
Jun 14, 2017 • 35 min
A processing party. [Trigger Warning]
No: Answers
Jun 6, 2017 • 43 min
Kaitlin questions the men in her life she trusts the most. [Trigger Warning]
No: Inheritance
May 23, 2017 • 36 min
Episode two of No: We catch up to Kaitlin while she is in her mid-twenties, waiting to fall in love. [Trigger Warning]
No: Advance
May 9, 2017 • 19 min
Episode One of No: the story of Kaitlin’s non-psychedelic trip through girlhood. [Trigger Warning]
Trailer: No
Apr 28, 2017 • 3 min
Our new season, starting May 9th.
First Comes Marriage
Apr 4, 2017 • 23 min
Ryan Kailath’s parents met for 15 minutes before they married.
Pansy: Local Honey
Feb 20, 2017 • 17 min
transfemme artist + noise diva
Pansy: The Beloved
Feb 7, 2017 • 21 min
A Meditation
Pansy: Ultraslut
Jan 25, 2017 • 24 min
No Fats//No Femmes
Pansy: Twirl
Jan 11, 2017 • 22 min
Kaitlin talks to friends, exes and her dad about what it’s like to be feminine as a cis-man.
That Smell
Dec 7, 2016 • 8 min
Rhonda spends their entire day relishing the sensation of going down on their girl.
Mariya – Extended Cut
Nov 23, 2016 • 44 min
An extended version of the story, Mariya, which took home the Gold at the 2016 Third Coast International Audio Festival for Best Documentary. This is a story about FGM.
Love, Harry
Nov 8, 2016 • 20 min
Have you ever had a friend you thought you might be in love with? Have you ever slept beside this person in a bed and wondered if their hand was grazing yours on purpose? What’s stopping you?
For Helen
Oct 18, 2016 • 11 min
Rest in peace Helen Breger.
Diaries: My Everything, My Bear
Oct 4, 2016 • 25 min
Alex and Joan met at a bar in the East Village in 2012. At the time, they were drastically different people, strangers to even themselves
Diaries: Mortified
Sep 20, 2016 • 14 min
Our Diary series would not be complete without hearing from fellow Radiotopia show, Mortified.
Diaries: No Way Out
Sep 7, 2016 • 24 min
In the vast ocean of the internet there are thousands of diaries that are locked by forgotten passwords and AOL email addresses; Ashley’s Livejournal is one of them.
Diaries: The Big House
Aug 16, 2016 • 20 min
On a residential street in a working-class neighborhood of a major American city, there is a house with boarded up windows. The mistresses who work there call it The Big House.
Diaries: BFF
Aug 2, 2016 • 27 min
August 31, 2004: Amelia and I hugged and said our goodbyes and now it’s just me.
The Understudy
Jul 19, 2016 • 12 min
A widow learns to grieve by dating her worst match.
Mr. Fix-it
Jul 5, 2016 • 9 min
A conversation between mother, Sophie Townsend and daughter, Anna about Mr. Fix-it, husband and father.
SE: Salt in the Wound
Jun 9, 2016 • 28 min
Episode four of Silent Evidence; one woman’s story of childhood sexual abuse.
SE: Hands on the Wheel
Jun 2, 2016 • 49 min
Episode three of Silent Evidence; one woman’s story of childhood sexual abuse.
SE: Ten Foot Pole
May 26, 2016 • 29 min
Episode two of Silent Evidence; one woman’s story of childhood sexual abuse.
SE: Not the Right Time
May 19, 2016 • 27 min
Episode one of Silent Evidence; one woman’s story of childhood sexual abuse.
May 4, 2016 • 39 min
When I was younger, someone took a knife to my clitoris and cut out a small, but significant part of me.
Ghost: You
Apr 6, 2016 • 12 min
“I will listen to the song when I’m 80, a grandmother to children born of someone other than you.”
Ghost: Violet
Mar 22, 2016 • 15 min
“It was April, unseasonably cold, cruelly wet. You were in a restaurant pumped hot with studio lights.”
Ghost: Emily
Mar 8, 2016 • 16 min
“Her past loves are with her always, in the form of small objects that she keeps. Her boyfriend has his own objects.”
Ghost: Alex
Feb 23, 2016 • 18 min
“Sometimes you can be in one place and everything seems right. And then the wind changes, even just a little bit, and everything seems different, or everything seems normal and that’s terrifying.”
Ghost: Bobby
Feb 10, 2016 • 12 min
“Leaning over my shoulder, you cast a shadow on everything. Things are dark and blurry — and I am drowning.“
The Wrath of the Potluck
Jan 19, 2016 • 11 min
“The time that god punished you for having a threesome with my sister.”
Samara + Kelsey
Jan 12, 2016 • 21 min
I didn’t really know her. I didn’t know why I called her. She came over and watched me watch ‘Sister Wives’ until we fell asleep.
Mr. Claus + Mrs. Claus
Dec 22, 2015 • 6 min
“Oh, I do miss my husband,” she wailed. “Where is he? Why do all sweethearts cuddle tonight except me?”
Idiot + Dummy
Dec 9, 2015 • 21 min
This is the kinda-sorta-true love story of Idiot + Dummy — two boneheads in love.
Desiray + Aaron
Nov 17, 2015 • 33 min
For girls like us, famous boys aren’t really boys — they’re canvasses on which we may splatter the full spectrum of our feelings. They are a safe way for us to experience longing and love, because they’ll never hurt us. Not if we don’t meet them.
The Shit
Oct 6, 2015 • 12 min
One man’s solitary quest to fulfill a desire and overcome shame.
The Magic Wand
Sep 22, 2015 • 7 min
Probably thousands of different vibrators have come and gone over the decades but there is one that has outlasted them all.
Save The Date: 10/16/15
Sep 9, 2015 • 7 min
The Heart is hosting a celebration of love, commitment and business, also known as…a WEDDING!
The Beach
Aug 18, 2015 • 14 min
After getting an ostomy, being naked was forever changed.
The P-Spot
Aug 4, 2015 • 7 min
One Saturday night, Kaitlin ventured onto St. Laurent Boulevard in Montreal and asked strangers if they had ever had their P-spots touched.
The Intimacies
Jul 21, 2015 • 13 min
After a night of performing intimate acts in exchange for cash, Gloria heads home. Once in bed with her own lover, she wonders if she can really keep personal life and work life separate.
The Real Squishy
Jul 7, 2015 • 6 min
There was a time when nothing had names and we were just kids.
Riis Park
Jun 30, 2015 • 14 min
It’s a hot, summer day and we are taking the train to Riis Park with Joan Nestle.
Gina Gold
Jun 16, 2015 • 25 min
At 24, Gina Gold headed West in search of fame, freedom and her first good lay.
The Lost Pardner
May 20, 2015 • 9 min
Going out west offered queers and transfolk a context outside of mainstream society. And there were a lot of people who were looking for that new context.
How to Become a Princess
May 5, 2015 • 25 min
Stefonknee Wolscht has been on a life long journey for love and acceptance. At age 52, she has found a family - one who gives her freedom from all of life’s rules and norms. She is finally a princess.
Dual Control Model
Apr 21, 2015 • 8 min
Being a sexual being is more than getting from point A (getting horny) to point B (having an orgasm). It’s a complicated, nuanced balance of desire and apprehension, and nobody knows that better than Dr. Emily Nagoski.
The Spark
Apr 13, 2015 • 15 min
The final story of our series is about two people who took a one day’s love and tried to make it last for ever.
The Subway
Mar 17, 2015 • 11 min
A Series: One Day’s Love. Is a one day’s love ever really dead?
The Hurricane
Mar 3, 2015 • 18 min
A Series: One Day’s Love. The mayfly sneaks in through an open window, lives her little mayfly life to the fullest, perhaps even finding her true mayfly love. Then, before she knows it, death has overtaken her. She lies limply in the windowsill.
Feb 17, 2015 • 9 min
And I cannot deny, strange though it may sound, that I enjoyed myself in this disguise.
Beauty Is Pain
Feb 2, 2015 • 28 min
Pumping is getting injected with black market silicone. All the girls were doing it and they looked good. Rajee Rajindra went to get pumped. It changed her life forever.
And 27 Other Firsts
Jan 20, 2015 • 5 min
Short and Sweet. The story of Whitney Jones’ first love.
Jan 6, 2015 • 17 min
The first time is a threshold. On one side is the world as you know it, and on the other side is the unknown.
Welcome to the Heart
Dec 1, 2014 • 8 min
A radio show is born. Again. We all go through phases and have an identity crisis or three. Audio Smut started as an hour long broadcast radio show at CKUT in Montreal, and has transformed into a delicately crafted podcast now part of PRX’s Radiotopia…
Sep 16, 2014 • 14 min
An Interlude. This is an interview about necking (or lack thereof). A kiss over time: at the beginning, in the middle, at the end. If you don’t like how somebody kisses, can you grow into it? Samara’s Grandma tells us her story. This episode is part of…
Aug 20, 2014 • 17 min
Episode Twelve. Kaitlin and Kyle. They met at a kissing booth. On their first date they went on a recording adventure (for one of the early Audio Smut documentaries about the Drag Queens). They became obsessed with each other. They ended up making audio…
Movies In Your Head
Jun 23, 2014 • 24 min
Episode Eleven. Audio Smut presents: a radio play. This episode was a documentary experiment, produced in collaboration with composer Shani Aviram. We set out asking questions about how perception is altered in early romantic relationships. How does your…
My Natural Pocket
Jun 8, 2014 • 7 min
A Quickie. Behold the almighty power of the V. Vaginas can hold the largest and smallest of objects with barely the slightest uncomfort. So it just makes sense to stash your weed in there. Star reporter, Ruth Eddy tells us how she came to use her natural…
Coming Of Age
May 11, 2014 • 39 min
Episode Ten. This episode is about growing up, becoming an adult, entering a stage of independence: shaving cream, tampons, driving, voting, doing your own dishes, doing your own taxes and sex. This episode will take you on a path of rituals, formal or…
Love Letters
Apr 2, 2014 • 36 min
Episode Nine. The written word: a way to fuel a romance, a way to capture someone’s attention, a way to break up. We read people’s most private letters, and tell the story of the relationships that were made and broken by them.
To Nora
Mar 9, 2014 • 6 min
A Quickie. In 1909, James Joyce wrote his wife, Nora Barnacle, a series of very sexy letters. While her side of the correspondence has been lost, we still have Joyce’s letters–and they’re really good. In this quickie, we’re reading you one of our…
Fu*k Love
Feb 23, 2014 • 50 min
Episode Eight (Welcome to Season Two) FU*K LOVE. Family. Responsibility. Survival. Economic Stability. These were once much more important to things to build your life on. This episode looks at the ideal of true love, how it came to be and what exists…
A Valentine
Feb 13, 2014 • 5 min
A Quickie: Do you believe in true love? Does it really exist, or is it just a mythology made up by Hollywood? How would you define true love? Jonathan Goldstein shares his thoughts on this Valentine’s Day special.
Nov 5, 2013 • 36 min
Episode Seven. Psychologist and sexologist, John Money came up with the theory of a lovemap. A lovemap is a template. It’s a template that we are constantly measuring our sexual and romantic experiences against. It’s the map of what we like, who we like…
Afternoon Delight
Jul 26, 2013 • 9 min
A Quickie: This quickie is a history- a love map, if you will- of how Kaitlin manages to be such a productive person. Also, this is the reason why Kaitlin insists on holding our meetings in coffee shops. Here, the lines between public and private, work…
Getting By
Jul 8, 2013 • 40 min
Episode Six Homelessness isn’t really something that can be easily defined. Sometimes people make choices, other times people have no choices. In this episode, we have three situations from three very different people about how they managed to get by.
Yellow Jumpsuit
Jun 24, 2013 • 8 min
A Quickie: Keith’s virginity story. Keith is and always has been an extremely charming man. I know it was the 90s, but there is nothing charming about a yellow jumpsuit. Poor clothing choices aside, Keith still proves to be a chick magnet. If you love…
Happens to the Best of Us
Jun 10, 2013 • 30 min
Episode Five. It’s your highschool sex ed class. Mrs. Green is going to play a movie. You are very excited. The room goes dark, the movie begins. You’re already a little bit aroused; you’ve seen pornography before but never in public with all your…
Movie Night
May 20, 2013 • 11 min
A Quickie: What will people think? This story happened to a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend of Audio Smut Producer, Erin. When surfing the Casual Encounters on Craigslist one must be prepared to be surprisingly turned on. Things get hot on…
May 8, 2013 • 32 min
Episode Four. The good times and the bad times of making babies. Babies being born is a topic we accidentally avoid on audio smut. But the fact is, we have bodies that make us babies and sex is involved, albeit in many different ways. In this episode, we…
The Wrath of the Potluck
Mar 25, 2013 • 12 min
A Quickie: The time that god punished you for having a threesome with my sister. Devon is one of Kaitlin’s oldest friends from high school. They now live in different cities and see each other yearly if they’re lucky. Kaitlin’s sister recently moved…
Mar 3, 2013 • 31 min
Episode Two. Seriously, what’s the big deal. In this episode, we tackle one of the biggest taboos. We eat food, everyday and eventually that food has to come out. Yeah it’s gross and stinky but it is one of the most natural things that our body does.…
Feb 28, 2013 • 6 min
A Quickie: We bring to you a surprising letter from Mozart.
The Sensorium
Feb 5, 2013 • 26 min
Episode One. Experience more than sight, sound, smell, taste, touch. Venture with us beyond the 5-way sense scape.
The Illicit Couples Retreat
Jan 25, 2013 • 10 min
Audio Smut Experiments: ventures beyond radio into the realm of sound installation, performance and audio art work. The Penn Hills Hotel and Resort was abandoned by it’s owner in the late 2000′s after failing to pay their taxes. The expansive property is…
I Like Me
Jan 12, 2013 • 6 min
Audio Smut Experiments: ventures beyond radio into the realm of sound installation, performance and audio art work. Audio Smut in collaboration with a visual artist who remains anonymous created a slide show of sexy self portraits accompanied by audio…
Audible Picture Show
Oct 15, 2012 • 8 min
Audio Smut Experiments: ventures beyond radio into the realm of sound installation, performance and audio art work. People sitting in a dark movie theater in Brooklyn sat and listened to a series of sound art pieces. This was one of them.