This Is Actually Happening

This Is Actually Happening

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The uncanny, extraordinary, true stories of events that have dramatically altered the lives of ordinary people; a son is shot by his own father, a woman’s sister develops multiple personalities, a man wakes up in the morgue. These are riveting, moving and often haunting stories that will stick with you long after you listen.


134: What if your singular dream fell to pieces?
Jun 11 • 44 min
After devoting his life to a singular passion, a man develops a rare condition that threatens to crush his dreams forever.
133: What if your life went up in flames?
May 28 • 42 min
A woman finally establishes a life for herself after years of caring for her mother’s illness, only to watch her entire life be consumed before her eyes.
132: What if you were kept from the one you loved most?
May 14 • 32 min
A young man falls deeply in love after meeting the girl of his dreams, leading to an unexpected event that leaves him with an irreparable void.
131: What if a psychotic break split your life wide open?
Apr 30 • 34 min
After surviving a father whose mental illness consumed the family, a woman spirals down into psychosis and compulsive behaviors, finally leading her on the path to healing.
130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most?
Apr 16 • 41 min
After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships.
129: What if your mother left to follow a cult?
Apr 2 • 53 min
From a divided home with parents of two opposing world views, a girl whose mother becomes enamored with a trance channeler must now make sense of her life in the void of abandonment.
128: What if your son stabbed your daughter?
Mar 19 • 48 min
Escaping a dysfunctional family background and finally raising a wonderful family of her own, a woman’s son commits a shocking crime that throws everything into chaos.
127: What if your drive for perfection became your fatal flaw?
Mar 5 • 35 min
Heading to college as a star athlete from a protective family, a man’s perfectionism and drive for self-control leads to a downward spiral.
126: What if your family was consumed by an unthinkable act?
Feb 19 • 54 min
Growing up Jehovah’s Witness and then setting out to form an identity of her own, a woman reconciles the silences of her loving and devoted family with an unthinkable act that throws everything into question.
125: What if you left everything you had ever known?
Feb 5 • 45 min
“It came along with this complete obliteration of everything I had ever believed and been taught and every moral that I was that I had within me.”
124: What if you transitioned into an alternate reality?
Jan 22 • 50 min
“It’s almost as if like I could feel my whole self just changing at this point and just changing in the way that I trust people…and questioning myself and everything.”
123: What if you refused to be annihilated?
Jan 8 • 62 min
“I believe that people like me people that have experienced trauma, I think we’re the ones that need to save the world…we’re the ones that actually know everything about innocence.”
122: What if you found a real Hollywood romance?
Dec 11, 2018 • 53 min
“If I have to go on based what I found out, I feel like maybe my whole entire relationship was just a fantasy.”
121: What if your favorite celebrity had a crush on you?
Nov 27, 2018 • 38 min
“I’ve lived long enough existing in that gray area of not really knowing that maybe I will live the rest of my life not really knowing.”
120: What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder?
Nov 13, 2018 • 67 min
“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”
119: What if you suddenly felt like a werewolf?
Oct 30, 2018 • 50 min
“It’s like trying to go into like a dark cave with a rope attached to you so that you can find your way back and then losing that the end of the rope.”
118: What if you uncovered the family secret?
Oct 16, 2018 • 57 min
“The first thing that I felt was invaded, I didn’t know who the other half of me was….My whole body was crawling and I just wanted out.”
117: What if you didn’t know what was wrong with you?
Oct 2, 2018 • 50 min
“Not knowing, not having control over my body, and not having control over the narrative of everyone around me…it’s the worst feeling to have to go through this by yourself.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram:…
116: What if the Devil was battling for your mind?
Sep 18, 2018 • 43 min
“What I feared the most was that these episodes would continue to increase until that’s the world I was living in, in this other nonsensical world completely detached from reality.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram:…
115: What if your son went missing?
Sep 4, 2018 • 56 min
“It’s not that I understand why this happened, but understanding that you think you know what’s going on, but you don’t. You think you have control but you don’t.” Today’s episode features Gina Whalen. If you’d like to help fund her son Izzy’s Little Free…
114: What if her ex-boyfriend tried to kill you?
Aug 21, 2018 • 52 min
“All of a sudden within a hundred meters of your house that’s where the worst thing happens and suddenly the world becomes different…you can’t go back to who you were.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening…
113: What if you survived a genocide?
Aug 7, 2018 • 49 min
“No one can even understand. You can’t measure the magnitude of that pain. You can’t measure the pain that we went through.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Music Bed:…
Season 8 Announcements
Jul 31, 2018 • 3 min
Announcements for the upcoming 8th Season of This Is Actually Happening, starting Tuesday August 7th, 2018.
112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door?
May 1, 2018 • 56 min
“What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, ‘that could never happen to you.’ So now once that happened, it’s like well anything can happen to me at any time.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram:…
111: What if you had to relearn who you are?
Apr 18, 2018 • 38 min
“It put everything that I thought about myself into question…I didn’t know what I believed. I didn’t know what was real, what was fake.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder…
110: What if everything turned into mayhem?
Apr 3, 2018 • 48 min
“It was absolutely like a nightmare. At the same time you’re realizing you’re never going to wake up from this nightmare because this is real life.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” -…
109: What if you were sideswiped into a whole new world?
Mar 20, 2018 • 36 min
“I didn’t know what the real world was. I wasn’t quite oriented…I can’t describe it.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-Entry” - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The…
108: What if you didn’t know what they would do to you?
Mar 6, 2018 • 37 min
“When the people that are doing this to you look as scared as you are it kind of adds to the fear and to the chaos and to the ‘you don’t know how this is going to end’ feeling.” Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram:…
107: What if the pain wouldn’t go away?
Feb 20, 2018 • 30 min
“If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “To…
106: What if you had to fight to be yourself?
Feb 6, 2018 • 49 min
“We don’t have growth unless there’s pain, and I needed that time to hit rockbottom, so that I could look for a solution.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening You can follow today’s guest, Patricio Manuel,…
105: What if your deepest fear was your greatest pleasure?
Jan 23, 2018 • 50 min
“Those weird moments of tension…that moment of uncertainty but impending doom…I don’t think anything really ever matched that.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-Entry” - Lee Rosevere…
Best of TIAH #1 - Rebroadcast - #79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?
Jan 16, 2018 • 36 min
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I have been releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid…
Best of TIAH #2 - Rebroadcast - #67: What if you woke up in the morgue?
Jan 10, 2018 • 19 min
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January.…
Best of TIAH #3 - Rebroadcast - #63: What if another realm moved through you?
Jan 4, 2018 • 28 min
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January.…
Best of TIAH #4 - Rebroadcast - #68: What if your sister had five personalities?
Dec 28, 2017 • 31 min
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (@actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January.…
Best of TIAH #5 - Rebroadcast - #89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?
Dec 21, 2017 • 43 min
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in midJanuary. Without further ado,…
104: What if you woke up to a loud bang?
Dec 12, 2017 • 45 min
“There is no answer, I’ll never get my apology…I’ll never get my closure.” Producers: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.org Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” – Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit…
103: What if you had a ten year nightmare?
Nov 28, 2017 • 44 min
“The hardest part is that I still don’t have any answers…what came into my house that night?” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music:…
102: What if your origins were a mystery?
Nov 14, 2017 • 37 min
“I walk around and there’s still kind of like an emptiness. For all I know I could be a government experiment….but part of it is kind of exciting because I think, my father could be anyone.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com…
101: What if you sacrificed yourself for your country?
Oct 31, 2017 • 46 min
“When you’re on deployment, your body’s in a different place. So when I got back home my body knew I was safe, so that’s when my body shut down on me.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score &…
100: What if he wouldn’t let you leave?
Oct 17, 2017 • 52 min
“I just didn’t feel like a person, I didn’t feel like I was a being walking on this planet a lot of the time.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io…
99: What if you kept getting back up again?
Sep 29, 2017 • 40 min
“Life will try to take you out itself…When I look back at this situation, people don’t even know that I go through the s**t that I go through.” Producers: Whit Missildine & Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake…
98: What if you were an incest survivor?
Sep 17, 2017 • 53 min
“How can you know who you really are when from your earliest memories you have just been a vessel for someone else’s needs and desires and control and violence?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music:…
97: What if you were a white supremacist?
Sep 1, 2017 • 45 min
“I look around at my life and how it is sort of a metaphor for what I think the future could be for the American people.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black -…
96: What if you went to the dark side?
Aug 18, 2017 • 41 min
“To enter into nonexistence, to enter into emptiness, into nothingness, is that space from which all arises, from which new birth comes.” Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score &…
95: What if you were sent away for re-education?
Aug 3, 2017 • 51 min
“You don’t know up from down. You don’t know left from right. You don’t know right from wrong. All you know is that you do not want to be wrong.” Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original…
Season Seven Announcements
Jul 21, 2017 • 2 min
Updates and announcements about Season Seven of the This Is Actually Happening podcast. First Episode Launch for Season Seven: July 25th, 2017 Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa…
94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had?
Jul 21, 2017 • 41 min
“It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io…
93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering?
Apr 13, 2017 • 42 min
“It’s in these places that you begin to see the limits of human capacity – how resilient we are…how we will find a way.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Featuring: Anjan…
92: What if they told you the monsters were real?
Mar 29, 2017 • 41 min
“Everybody learns at like 12 or 13…what is real and not real, and I did not get a chance to learn that.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro…
91: What if you received special messages?
Mar 8, 2017 • 33 min
“You start making alternative meanings out of everything.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The…
90: What if you had a breakthrough insight about the human condition?
Feb 21, 2017 • 36 min
“I don’t know why that was a fear of just not having control over me…over what I was going to do.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” – Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?
Feb 9, 2017 • 42 min
“The rules of reality were changing, and I was trying to get acquainted with these new rules.” Producer: Whit Missildine - http://thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - http://ryanblack.io…
88: What if you survived war and poverty in Colombia?
Jan 25, 2017 • 37 min
“I pictured this little girl inside of me that was not protected.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music:…
87: What if you were hunted by the Japanese mafia?
Jan 10, 2017 • 38 min
“This might be the beginning of my last few minutes on the planet.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music:…
86: What if you had always wanted a different mother?
Dec 20, 2016 • 34 min
“What I felt like I needed at any given time in my life, she just couldn’t give me.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
85: What if you had bipolar disorder?
Dec 1, 2016 • 31 min
“I had 20 years of living my life as the person I knew I was, and then I had this episode that was totally different from that person.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The Valley Station” -…
84: What if you staged a dramatic rescue?
Nov 8, 2016 • 26 min
“What is the impetus that makes you feel you have to do that thing? I don’t know what that little magic piece is, but it was there.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Slumberia” - unbeknown Intro…
83: What if your past was an unsolved mystery?
Oct 25, 2016 • 38 min
“Everything now is just a partial truth. We’re never going to know.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El…
82: What if you lived your life in exile?
Oct 11, 2016 • 26 min
“You lost your country, you lost your family, you lost your identity….and you didn’t know what to do.” Produced by: Tom Henley and Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Resister” - Mama Dang Intro Music:…
81: What if you lived your life as a ghost?
Sep 30, 2016 • 36 min
“It’s weird to think that there’s a place in your brain that’s a cradle for the soul and it’s cracked.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The Valley Station” - Accou Link to hear more by Accou:…
80: What if your life was rudely interrupted?
Sep 13, 2016 • 32 min
“It would have been so easy for me to give up and many people in my situation would have given up.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Website for Rudely Interrupted, the band,…
79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?
Sep 1, 2016 • 33 min
“It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-Entry” - Lee…
78: What if you narrowly escaped with your life?
Aug 18, 2016 • 42 min
“It took me a long time to feel even like a person again.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Five” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El…
77: What if you followed a singular dream around the planet?
Aug 4, 2016 • 32 min
“It’s nice not knowing exactly where you are all the time” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Five” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El…
76: What if you couldn’t remember the worst event of your life?
Jul 19, 2016 • 29 min
“The challenge of trying to think of my life in a linear narrative is impossible.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The Dark Glow of the Mountains” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” -…
75: What if you were kidnapped by a police officer?
May 12, 2016 • 30 min
“I look at that girl now and I really don’t even feel like she was me.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Five” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon…
74: What if you faced a series of unfortunate events?
Apr 22, 2016 • 24 min
“I had such a ‘Leave It To Beaver’ childhood and then you’re kind of flung into all this chaos and you realize ‘wow, I didn’t live in the real world.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Lumien” -…
73: What if your father was lost in a shipwreck?
Apr 1, 2016 • 21 min
“It was like a nightmare that could not be our own…It’s crazy to think that this actually happened to the people that we know.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie…
72: What if you survived a shipwreck?
Mar 15, 2016 • 30 min
“We were all having so much fun and then just ‘bam’ like that everybody’s gone.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
71: What if your mother tried to cut her heart out?
Feb 25, 2016 • 30 min
“You always feel like if your parent ever leaves you on Earth, it’s never going to be by their own hand.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-entry” - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” -…
70: What if you had a mind-blowing affair?
Feb 3, 2016 • 27 min
“I felt like a celestial axe had come down and split my skull in half.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-Entry” - Lee Rosevere Intro Music 1: “Brethren Arise” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music:…
69: What if the worst case scenario came true?
Jan 21, 2016 • 31 min
“It’s pretty devastating to find out that what you thought you knew was completely wrong.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Five” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
68: What if your sister had five personalities?
Jan 6, 2016 • 30 min
“I walked on eggshells every day….the only way I could survive was to be able to detect which one of these personalities I would be dealing with that day.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The…
67: What if you woke up in the morgue?
Dec 3, 2015 • 18 min
“Only thing I knew was blackness, that’s all I saw. Cuz everything went dark and I was in a whole new world.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper…
66: What if your father went missing?
Nov 11, 2015 • 27 min
“I’m just thinking ‘oh, okay…I’ll just sit there and be confused.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El…
65: What if you were irreversibly violated?
Oct 30, 2015 • 27 min
“Imagine in your mind when you can’t stand to be around you. That’s like unimaginable, but I got through that.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music:…
64: What if you were a fake priest in Japan?
Oct 13, 2015 • 21 min
“I’m like ‘oh man…what am I doing here?’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-Entry” - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft…
63: What if another realm moved through you?
Sep 24, 2015 • 25 min
“I was completely lost in, I don’t even know what the realm is called, this other spiritual realm, and I was grasping to be grounded.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The Dark Glow of the…
62: What if you went on the strangest trip?
Sep 8, 2015 • 26 min
“I had no idea what had just occurred and why….So I just hid there and waited and waited for what felt like an eternity.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Lumien” - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music:…
61: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part Two
Jul 2, 2015 • 27 min
“I still don’t know what I want it to mean or if I want it to mean anything.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The Dark Glow of the Mountains” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper…
60: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part One
Jun 9, 2015 • 26 min
“Anytime I felt off or bad or anything, I would immediately freak out….it would just spiral out of control every single time.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “The Dark Glow of the Mountains” -…
59: What if you couldn’t control your thoughts?
May 21, 2015 • 23 min
“Like a record player, stuck in a loop all day, every day.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam…
58: What if you were pronounced dead at age 12?
May 8, 2015 • 20 min
“You’re not supposed to recover from being dead…this is as ultimate as it gets, right?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The…
57: What if your husband had a death wish?
Apr 24, 2015 • 24 min
“I feel like I’m a survivor on this Earth and everybody’s got everything and I have to fight so hard to get it.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music:…
56: What if you touched the spirit world?
Apr 16, 2015 • 23 min
“There’s so much more to the bigger picture…and we’ll never understand it until we cross over.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Ambient Theme #1” - Steve O’Brien Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper…
55: What if reality suddenly fell apart?
Mar 19, 2015 • 25 min
“It’s like when your computer reboots…that’s sort of what happened to my brain, and then everything on the hard drive gets wiped.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-entry” - Lee Rosevere Intro…
54: What if you lost a high speed chase?
Feb 25, 2015 • 26 min
“This is not just a fantasy. This is not just a joke, like the rest of my life had become. This is real.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Lumien” - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper…
53: What if September 11th changed everything?
Feb 11, 2015 • 24 min
“I have no connection with who I was in 2001…don’t know him.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” -…
52: What if you found yourself in a dark, strange land?
Jan 29, 2015 • 20 min
“Mother nature tells us what to do, not the other way around.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo &…
51: What if your roommate had a deep dark secret?
Jan 13, 2015 • 22 min
“His face was everything that I was angry about.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam…
50: What if you were not supposed to see this?
May 19, 2014 • 20 min
“I’m not supposed to be seeing this. Like, there’s a crack somewhere. There’s something wrong.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Water” - Johannes Welsch Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
49: What if you were shot by your father?
May 5, 2014 • 28 min
“I remember blanking out, dazed….I felt like I was in a tunnel.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo &…
48: What if you went from riches to rags?
Apr 21, 2014 • 20 min
“I didn’t even understand what had happened, how I lost everything.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
47: What if your wife hung herself in the garage?
Apr 7, 2014 • 18 min
“It was just this sense of like an emotional atomic bomb go off in your head.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Water” - Johannes Welsch Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
46: What if your wife ran you over?
Mar 24, 2014 • 16 min
“You can never really tell what a woman’s been through if you don’t ask the right questions.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Lumien” - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
45: What if your husband led a secret life?
Mar 10, 2014 • 22 min
“The man that I loved is no more. It’s almost like, this person died, but is still living.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music:…
44: What if you delivered seven thousand babies?
Feb 25, 2014 • 21 min
“Its pretty hard to have a down day when you touch the beginnings of life.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Re-entry” - Lee Rosevere Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft…
43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths?
Feb 10, 2014 • 30 min
“All of the ways we define ourselves are going to be stripped away by illness or the dying process…now who am I?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: Tibetan Ohm Chant Intro Music: “Illabye” -…
42: What if you gave up everything for love?
Jan 27, 2014 • 23 min
“Everything is temporary if you give it enough time.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam…
41: What if you were supposed to be on that plane?
Jan 13, 2014 • 16 min
“It was literally an out of body experience. Like, it wasn’t me who was looking at the screen.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Chop it Up” - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper…
40: What if you came out to your wife at age 37?
Dec 9, 2013 • 22 min
“I have begun the process for some years of decolonizing the mind, but I have a long way to go.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Slumberia” - unbeknown Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
39: What if you married someone you knew only 10 days?
Dec 3, 2013 • 23 min
“We screw up, and that’s how we find our way.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam…
38: What if you were delivered by the Holy Ghost?
Nov 11, 2013 • 19 min
“When things don’t make sense to me, I don’t like it. So, to have something like this obviously not make sense to me….But it happened.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic…
37: What if your dad started dressing as a woman?
Oct 28, 2013 • 15 min
“It was one of the first times I realized, okay, there’s a whole other world of things that are possible now because of this.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cat Wearing Glasses” – Lee…
36: What if you lost a fiance and lover to a wave?
Oct 14, 2013 • 25 min
“I could not look at the ocean, because when I look at it, it just seemed like an enemy to me.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
35: What if you didn’t go outside until 6th grade?
Sep 27, 2013 • 21 min
“They were saying, you’re too American for us to deport you….But you’re not American enough for us to give you a passport.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Wake Up” - Spuntic Intro Music:…
8: What if you were falsely accused of pedophilia?
Sep 14, 2013 • 19 min
“Yeah I struggle with that question…Why?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Water” – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft…
33: What if you left Wall Street to find true purpose?
Sep 14, 2013 • 20 min
“And that was essentially the crowbar that kind of flipped the whole world view on its head.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
32: What if you lived through the Sri Lankan civil war?
Sep 14, 2013 • 20 min
“Statistically, you’re going to survive this….but it’s the terror of not knowing.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cat Wearing Glasses” – Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
31: What if your newborn baby never stopped crying?
Sep 14, 2013 • 21 min
“It’s hard to fall in love with somebody that you can’t get to know.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Snow Capture” - Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” -…
30: What if you were raided by pirates?
Sep 14, 2013 • 21 min
“I can imagine now, as a father….I can imagine what he feels like.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “To Speak of Solitude” – Brambles Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
29: What if you had sex with over 900 people?
Sep 14, 2013 • 27 min
“I’ve come to a place where I don’t believe in a God that’s less compassionate than I am.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
28: What if you were lost in the jungle?
Sep 14, 2013 • 15 min
“That is the cutting edge. That is the true cutting edge - that moment.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music Bed: “Bliss Out” - Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
27: What if you survived a deadly plague?
Sep 14, 2013 • 20 min
“Somehow, some way and for some reason, I have thus far survived it. I don’t what that means.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “However Dark It Be” - Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” -…
26: What if you were a nurse for hardened criminals?
Sep 14, 2013 • 16 min
“When you’re looking for a sign, you reach a point, and when you’re ready you’ll take anything as a sign. And I reached that point.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: Irsen’s Tale – Kai Engel Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper…
25: What if you rose from the ashes of addiction?
Sep 14, 2013 • 23 min
“And the why question…I suppose there is an answer to the why, and it has no interest to me any more.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is…
24: What if your mom kicked you out on the streets?
Sep 14, 2013 • 14 min
“I still smile, I still laugh…because I feel like nothing’s gonna knock me out.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo &…
23: What if your stepchild was kidnapped?
Sep 14, 2013 • 19 min
“Still to this day I question, because what mercy is there in that?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Water” – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo…
22: What if your mom had Paranoid Personality Disorder?
Sep 14, 2013 • 17 min
“Your family becomes normal no matter how weird it is.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Snow Capture”- Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)…
21: What if you had a psychotic break at age 17?
Sep 14, 2013 • 17 min
“I was this other person….and what I saw my real me as is the person I used to be and it would sneak up on me and see what I was doing behind my back.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Bliss Out” - Nasienie Intro Music:…
20: What if you were a white school principal in 1968?
Sep 14, 2013 • 18 min
“Nothing I learned at University taught me how to handle this kind of situation, or any of us who were there.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Not for Nothing” – Dan Gross Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The…
19: What if you suffered from Tourette Syndrome?
Sep 14, 2013 • 17 min
“I just felt like my brain told me that I had to do it.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Bliss Out” - Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)…
18: What if you were hanging off a 600 ft waterfall?
Sep 14, 2013 • 17 min
“It could just be over, all of a sudden, in a second.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “To Speak of Solitude” – Brambles Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y…
17: What if you were given 48 hours to live?
Sep 14, 2013 • 18 min
“I’m just so clear that nothing else is promised, other than right now.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Cat Wearing Glasses” – Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam…
16: What if you became a Blood Sorcerer?
Sep 14, 2013 • 19 min
“I woke up and I was just like, wait a second, I feel whole again.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Irsen’s Tale” – Kai Engel Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo…
15: What if your dad died on your 10th birthday?
Sep 14, 2013 • 18 min
“It’s always going to put me in a strange place…A place I can’t articulate.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Not for Nothing” – Dan Gross Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam…
14: What if you learned how to swim at 43?
Sep 14, 2013 • 12 min
“It was a huge revelation…It was what we call the ‘Aha’ moment.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y…
13: What if you got a job transporting dead bodies?
Sep 14, 2013 • 11 min
“How the fuck did I get here?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “However Dark It Be” - Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf…
12: What if your dad wasn’t your real dad?
Sep 13, 2013 • 16 min
“I was always semi-conscious that, okay, I’m gonna play this off…but deep inside, I don’t really belong here.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Let Down” - Genie Love (Radiohead Cover) Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro…
34: What if you spent 4 years in solitary confinement?
Sep 13, 2013 • 22 min
“After crossing that line, hope was born in me. And this would make all the difference in the world.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Union Flow” - Spuntic Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” -…
11: What if you didn’t believe in belief itself?
Sep 13, 2013 • 15 min
“If you really want something to be true, that’s when you have to question it.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Ultra Deep Field” – Stellardrone Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo &…
10: What if you quit your job and lived on garbage?
Sep 13, 2013 • 15 min
“It’s pretty liberating….just saying ‘fuck it’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Rubbish Hummingbird” - LuWorm Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)…
7: What if you lost your sense of smell?
Sep 13, 2013 • 16 min
“For the first time this year…I smelled a person, for one day.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: “Progression” - Jessica Styler Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo…
9: What if you had your first kiss at 27?
Sep 13, 2013 • 16 min
“If I had chosen to participate in my life a decade earlier, I would be a completely different person than I am now.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Snow Capture” - Nasienie Intro Music: “Illabye” - Tipper Outro Music:…
6: What if you weren’t afraid to die?
Sep 12, 2013 • 9 min
“Oh no, I’m not afraid of dying, I’m afraid of living.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: Tibetan Ohm Chant Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf…
5: What if you worked in a remote African hospital?
Sep 12, 2013 • 19 min
“It again became clear that I didn’t know what I was talking about.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft…
4: What if your mom died on Christmas Day?
Sep 12, 2013 • 13 min
“When life suddenly throws something at you like that…Now I’ll believe anything. You tell me anything, I’ll be like ‘sure, why not.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “To Speak of Solitude” – Brambles Intro Music: “Illabye” –…
3: What if you used to speak in tongues?
Sep 12, 2013 • 15 min
“I want to understand my own brain.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Irsen’s Tale” – Kai Engel Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf…
2: What if you were an alcoholic at age 9?
Sep 12, 2013 • 18 min
“The one that wins is the one you feed the most” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Water” – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf…
1: What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire?
Sep 12, 2013 • 12 min
“We’re still here. What part are we playing in all this?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Music: “Cat Wearing Glasses” – Lee Rosevere Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper Outro Music: “The Moon is Down” - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo…