Mental Illness Happy Hour

Mental Illness Happy Hour

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A weekly hour-long conversation between host Paul Gilmartin and a guest (often a fellow artist) about their mental and emotional struggles, large and small. Listeners describe it as ” entertaining, comforting, honest, helpful and funny”.


443 - Best Of: Rob Delaney
Jul 12 • 63 min
From 2011 - actor Rob Delaney (Catastrophe) opens up about his hilariously horrifying alcoholic bottom and how he has adapted to live with what might have killed most people. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spread the word via social media. website is…
442 - Best Of - Teresa Strasser
Jul 5 • 93 min
Listener-Voted #1 episode of 2011 and for good reason. The Emmy-nominated writer/performer brings it. She opens up about her struggles, insecurities and fear of not being cut out to be a mother. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spread the word via…
441 - Surviving Prison & Gang Life - Bobby Martinez
Jun 28 • 89 min
The 53 year-old former gang-member has spent most of his life in prison in solitary confinement. He addresses his shame over the harms he caused, surviving prison, getting sober, going back to school and regaining custody of his kids. WAYS TO HELP THE…
440 Repressed Memories - Aaron Woodall
Jun 21 • 111 min
Repressed sex abuse memories are difficult especially when the perpetrator is a female relative. The comic talks about uncovering his memories, leaving Mormonism & his belief that he deserves bad things to happen to him. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
439 - Finding Our Core Emotions - Hilary Jacobs Hendel LCSW
Jun 14 • 100 min
The certified psychoanalyst, author of It’s Not Always Depression:Working the Change Triangle to Listen to the Body, Discover Core Emotions, and Connect to Your Authentic Self and AEDP psychotherapist opens up about her struggles with perfectionism and…
438 Alec MacDonald aka @AlecWithPen
Jun 7 • 131 min
The popular cartoonist @AlecWithPen shares his history with depression, anxiety, failed relationships, a wealthy but distant family, low self-esteem, trying to find his passion & how he finally channeled it into his drawings. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
437 - Aging & Happiness - Dr Andrea Brandt
May 31 • 94 min
The 77 year-old veteran psychotherapist, teacher and author shares her insights into how we can embrace aging and mortality to deal with feelings of irrelevance and anger and find contentment thru acceptance, mindfulness and purpose. WAYS TO HELP THE…
436 - Healthy Love - Christina Howard
May 24 • 112 min
Her lifelong fear of commitment was masked behind an obsession with emotionally available men - Christina shares how she personally changed and healed her pain to be able to recognize and accept healthy love including self-love. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
435 Anxiety & Humor - Jordan Reid
May 17 • 88 min
The hilarious blogger/author of Ramshackle Glam &The Big Activity Book For Anxious People shares about her battles with anxiety, & being fired from It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia. She & Paul also get into some fun Fears and Loves. WAYS TO HELP THE…
434 - Depression, Drinking & Fear - Ry Doon
May 10 • 117 min
The comedian shares about his battles with depression, fear of failure, huge financial and professional setbacks (he had a huge following on Vine before it was retired), having a mother with BiPolar I, and alcohol. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe!…
433 - Janet Varney Returns
May 3 • 112 min
Paul’s former Dinner and a Movie cohost and very first guest on the podcast returns to share about fears, loves, panic attacks, people pleasing, hurt feelings and her battles with personalization displacement syndrome. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe!…
432 - Heartache & Obsession - Elle Huerta
Apr 26 • 92 min
Elle talks about obsessions & letting go especially after breakups, shame, isolation, rejection and not being enough, plus the sickness of working to extreme exhaustion and trying to find validation outside of her accomplishments. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
431 - Rich But Sad & Video Games - Keith Kingbay
Apr 19 • 92 min
The comedian and podcaster (New Player Has Joined) opens up about his financially privileged but emotionally barren childhood, verbal abuse from youth hockey coaches, and discovering himself thru video games. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spread the…
430 - Our Own Worst Enemies - Lori Gottlieb LMFT
Apr 12 • 102 min
The licensed therapist shares common issues people deal with in therapy and ways that we are our own worst enemy. Paul shares about adopting a dog, plus great listener descriptions of their food issues anxiety and depression. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
429 Trust Issues, Ideation & Food - Leo Flowers
Apr 5 • 127 min
The comic, life coach, & ex-athlete shares about his suicidal ideation, struggles with food, abandonment by his dad who fathered him via an affair, learning trust, self-care, conflict resolution and even trying the suicide hotline. WAYS TO HELP THE…
428 - Trading Sex For Love - Marigny Goodyear
Mar 29 • 102 min
The 41 year-old mother reads the open letter she wrote to the men who took advantage of her as a young teen, discussing gray area issues like consent, alcohol, objectification and trading sex for love, attention or to avoid abandonment. WAYS TO HELP THE…
427 Best Of: Adoption & Religious Abuse - Julie J
Mar 22 • 146 min
Funny & vulnerable, Julie was born to a teenage mom, was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obsession with demons comes close to resembling the mother from “Carrie”. From 2013 WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
426 Grief Support Mistakes - Megan DeVine LPC
Mar 15 • 139 min
The licensed therapist shares about the well-meaning but misguided “cult of positivity” after tragedies, emotional dissonance, grief support, having difficult conversations and how she dealt with the sudden death of her partner. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
#425 Remembering Jenn Golick
Mar 8 • 126 min
Weeks after recording this episode last year, therapist Dr. Jennifer Golick was killed by a combat veteran with PTSD whom she was helping. She talks about her work with vets, covert incest and codependence. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spread the…
424 Remembering Brody Stevens
Mar 1 • 122 min
One of the most unique voices in comedy ended his life last week. Paul shares some thoughts on it, reads a listener email and replays episode 100, an interview with Brody from Feb 2013, in its entirety. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spread the word…
#423 Catholic Black Sheep - Joe Bill
Feb 22 • 91 min
Paul’s longtime friend and improv teacher talk about his violent ex-Notre Dame football player dad, his mentally unstable and sexually abusive mother and how he found his voice in creativity but still struggles with shame, codependency and self-love. Fill…
#422 Religious & Sexual Orientation OCD - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT
Feb 15 • 121 min
The LMFT returns to talk about two types of OCD; Scrupulosity - a fear of sinning or having sinned, and Sexual Orientation OCD - an obsession about one’s present or future orientation. She and Paul share their own anxieties. Kimberley also hosts her own…
#421 Amy G - Male Attention & Feeling Safe
Feb 8 • 134 min
Paul’s support group friend opens up about being addicted to male attention while also fearing them, feeling unsafe, love addiction, growing up without her bio dad (without explanation) and the power of vulnerability in healing. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST…
#420 Psychiatrist/Writer Dr Paul Puri
Feb 1 • 122 min
The psychiatrist and tv writer (Chicago Med) shares about his childhood, why some of his peers overprescribe medications, the importance of talk therapy, some info on hypnosis and Paul opens up about his health fears especially around meds and long-term…
Feeling Like An Outsider - Glenn Lutz
Jan 25 • 101 min
The author (Go F*%#, I Mean Find Yourself) opens up about being mixed race and battling depression and feeling like an outsider as far back as childhood. He and Paul share things they’re grateful for and read inspirational quotes from his book. More About…
#419b Bonus ep - Listener Struggles/Secrets
Jan 21 • 34 min
Some “Shame and Secrets” surveys and some “Awfulsome” and “Happy Moments” surveys as well.
#418 Fears & Loves w/Nora McInerney Live
Jan 18 • 110 min
The author (It’s OK to Laugh and No Happy Endings) and host of the podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking returns in front of live audience in Minneapolis. She, Paul and the audience share their fears and loves and answer some questions. More About Our Guest…
Bonus Ep - Maternal Incest - Daniel M
Jan 15 • 41 min
After hearing mens’ stories about experiencing incest (overtly or covertly) by their mothers, Daniel reached out to Paul with his story and has come to share it (with his girlfriend for support as well.) This episode is sponsored by StitchFix online…
Our Inner Critic - Cartoonist Lucy Bellwood
Jan 11 • 111 min
The cartoonist (100 Demon Dialogues) delves into her struggles with the mean/critical voice in her head and how she is confronting the lies it tells her about herself. She also shares about her dad, the author of The Highlander, and their complex…
Facing Her Fears - Courtenay Hameister
Jan 4 • 122 min
The writer/performer opens up about her anxiety, panic attacks, OCD, shame and body issues. She also reads excerpts from Okay Fine Whatever: The Year I Went From Being Afraid Of Everything to Being Afraid Of Most Things, her hilarious new book about…
2018 Year Ender - Awfulsome Traditions
Dec 28, 2018 • 53 min
No guests, just some of Paul’s thoughts on traditions and holidays; how we hide our feelings and some great, very honest (and one very dark) listener surveys including the best holiday Awfulsome moment yet.
Struggles With Moderation, Identify & Survivor’s Guilt - Akshay Nanavati
Dec 21, 2018 • 129 min
Born in India, raised in Texas, 33 year-old Iraq War veteran, ultra-runner and global philanthropist talks about his lifelong struggles with moderation, getting his identify from his accomplishments or dangerous/crazy/extreme behavior, feeling unworthy…
Dating Anxiety & Reproductive Issues - Becky Feldman
Dec 14, 2018 • 135 min
Coming from an anxious family, coupled with not fitting in, being bullied by her ballet teacher (and having red hair), then as a young teen, developing vaginismus, Becky spent her 20s resigned to never dating or having a partner. Surgery, talk therapy,…
Back in My Parents’ F-ing Basement - Live in MN w/Kjell Bjorgen
Dec 7, 2018 • 123 min
Recorded live in Minneapolis at Sisyphus Brewing, Paul and Kjell reunite and share stories of bombing onstage, panic attacks, depression, meds, feeling lazy, future tripping, anger at partners, living in parents’ basements, self-doubt, dead-end jobs and…
Cartoons & Murder - Tonya McKenzie
Nov 30, 2018 • 132 min
One of her first memories is seeing her mother’s boyfriend shot dead in front of her at four years-old. The mother she adored was fiercely protective of her except when it interfered with her dangerous lifestyle. A great chat about mental health -…
LeeAnn Kreischer - Rural Southern Generational Trauma
Nov 23, 2018 • 119 min
The former screenwriter, mother and podcaster shares about her relationship with her “party-animal” husband Bert Kreischer and her tumultuous childhood split between a mentally-ill narcissistic mother, a lovesick broken father, and a grandfather with…
FOMO, Shame & People Pleasing - Mary Holland
Nov 16, 2018 • 102 min
The improviser/actor (UCB’s Wild Horses) opens up about her struggles with feeling like a fraud, people pleasing, shame, FOMO, feeling undeserving or that her authentic self is just too much for people. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at…
Chris Mancini - A Buffet of Anxiety
Nov 9, 2018 • 77 min
The filmmaker (Earbuds) podcaster (Comedy Film Nerds and Conversations From the Abyss) writer (Pacified: A Handbook For the New Freaked-Out Dad) and comedian sits down to talk about anxiety, depression, parental stress/anxiety and feeling career…
Sofiya Alexandra - Mania, Communism, Surviving Cancer & #MeToo
Nov 2, 2018 • 147 min
The writer (Danger & Eggs) standup (Comedy Central: This is Not Happening) & podcaster (Reality Bytes) shares about her childhood under communism in the Ukraine, her battles with bipolar (loving the mania), surviving cancer and how to help or talk to…
Lazy, Dumb, Hyper, Scattered - Jessica McCabe & ADHD labels
Oct 26, 2018 • 102 min
“Bored”, “lazy”, “scattered” “hyper”; Are these fair or accurate labels? Is there anything we can do to help our brains or motivation? Jessica shares about her past struggles with these labels and how we can find what our brain likes so we don’t label and…
It’s OK To Be Weird & Anxious - May Wilkerson
Oct 19, 2018 • 108 min
The standup & cohost of the “Crazy in Bed” podcast opens up about being an only child & a “weird kid” who couldn’t appreciate her uniqueness and desire to belong until college. She shares about her battles with social anxiety, bulimia, drinking, insomnia,…
Adam Cayton-Holland: OCD, Social Conscience and Loss
Oct 12, 2018 • 103 min
The standup, actor and author shares about familial loss, his lifelong OCD rituals, and growing up in a home where the harsh and often brutal realities of the world were discussed with the kids, helping them empathize but also took an emotional toll.…
Mariel Hemingway - Generational Dysfunction & Art
Oct 5, 2018 • 105 min
The actress, author (Out Came the Sun) and granddaughter of writer Ernest Hemingway shares about the him, her family, acting, generational trauma, mental illness, addiction/alcoholism and dysfunction and how she has learned to deal with her anxiety,…
Dealing with Hopelessness - AFSP Psychiatrist Dr Christine Moutier
Sep 28, 2018 • 111 min
The psychiatrist and chief medical officer for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention shares insights into dealing with hopelessness both personally and with loved ones. The Suicide Hotline number is 1-800-273-TALK Older episodes can be found…
Paul in Ireland VI - Terror, Hate & Forgiveness - Sponsored by BetterHelp
Sep 21, 2018 • 91 min
Belfast native James Murray shares his story of surviving a terrorist attack, spiraling into drinking and anger then getting sober and finding peace & forgiveness and how he maintains it. He also shares about the benefits of ayahuasca. Older episodes can…
Paul in Ireland V - Ex IRA Prisoner Jake MacSiacais - Sponsored by BetterHelp
Sep 14, 2018 • 132 min
The former IRA member shares his people’s history, his years of imprisonment & torture by Protestants and the British govt, the responsibility he feels for civilian lives that were taken by his organization, watching fellow prisoner Bobby Sands die by…
Paul in Ireland IV - Emma - Sponsored by BetterHelp
Sep 6, 2018 • 100 min
The English architect (and yoga teacher) talks about navigating relationships being bisexual, finding solutions for her lifelong bouts with anxiety, recurrent depressive disorder, abusive partners and bottoming out with a suicide attempt. Older episodes…
Paul in Ireland III - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Caitlin
Aug 31, 2018 • 88 min
The 29 year-old Dubliner opens up about her struggles with psychosis, cutting/self-harm, alcohol, anger, learning disability (seeing letters mirrored) & spatial/motor control; also her suicide attempt and it finally expressing her pain despite feeling…
Paul in Ireland II - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Michael Corr/Belfast
Aug 24, 2018 • 92 min
Born in Belfast, Northern Ireland to a Catholic father and Protestant mother. He had the rare perspective of seeing all sides of the conflict both inside and outside his home, where he was raised Catholic in a violently Protestant neighborhood. He shares…
Paul in Ireland I - Sponsored by BetterHelp
Aug 17, 2018 • 101 min
21 year-old M emigrated to Dublin from China at 8. With a history of abuse and neglect, she learned to stuff her sadness or unleash it thru anger. She battles Bipolar I, BPD, Complex PTSD & co-dependence but is developing tools & support. She talks about…
ECT aka “Shock Therapy” - Beth May
Aug 10, 2018 • 106 min
At 27 Beth has had 68 ECT treatments aka “Shock Therapy” and while she attests to it’s effectiveness in helping her with her bipolar episodes it has also taken a toll on her memory; including not recognizing her boyfriend of several years. Older episodes…
Fetish Shame, Meds & Martial Arts - Dylan Brody
Aug 3, 2018 • 112 min
The writer/storyteller discusses the lifelong struggle to make peace with his amputation fetish, his ups and downs with taking meds, inheriting his dad’s pomposity, suicidal ideation and the benefits of martial arts in dealing with depression and anxiety.…
How to Deal With Addicts - Dr Cali Estes
Jul 27, 2018 • 98 min
Cali’s specialty is speaking the truth to high-profile or wealthy people trying to get sober, especially when they’re being enabled by family, hangers-on or the people they make money for. Topics are : codependency, low self-esteem & boundaries Older…
Michael Duffy - Vietnam Vet - Art & War
Jul 20, 2018 • 86 min
He was just a kid who wanted to get into art school but when he was rejected, he instead got sent to Vietnam. Later he would use painting to process the traumas he experienced. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for…
Meredith Erin - Trolls, SJWs & Angry People
Jul 13, 2018 • 62 min
Paul and Meredith share their stories and thoughts about encountering internet trolls, Social Justice Warriors gone awry and self-righteous bullies. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month. Get one month free…
Brian Huskey - Codependency vs Love
Jul 6, 2018 • 63 min
The improvisor/actor (Comedy Bang Bang, UCB, Adult Swim - Mr. Neighbor’s House) shares about dealing with his co-dependency, urge to fix other people, play the resentful victim and how support groups help him. Older episodes can be found ad-free…
Sexism PTSD & The Body - Elizabeth Menzel
Jun 29, 2018 • 119 min
Elizabeth Menzel’s life’s work is understanding and healing trauma trapped in the body - including her own. Originally a trained physical therapist she became intrigued by the link between clients with fibromyalgia and a history of trauma. She found help…
Female Domestic Violence Against Men - Daniel A
Jun 22, 2018 • 88 min
Daniel looks back at his relationship with his soon-to-be-ex-wife; turning from the woman of his dreams to a dangerously violent and unpredictable stranger. He talks about the myths around female on male DV and his experiences before leaving her Older…
Social Anxiety - Dr Ellen Hendriksen
Jun 15, 2018 • 122 min
The author of How To Be Yourself: Quiet Your Inner Critic and Rise Above Social Anxiety, and Harvard Medical School Psychologist shares not only the science of Social Anxiety and ways to deal with it but some of her own battles with it. Older episodes can…
Jessa Reed - Trailer Park Survivor & PTSD
Jun 7, 2018 • 116 min
Few guests have revealed as much of themselves as Jessa, a comic and podcaster (Mormon and the Meth-Head) We touch on being molested, fear of intimacy, addiction, sobriety, anger, psych wards, rejection, sexual fantasies most people would never share…
Clutter, Hoarding & Buying “Stuff” - Tracy McCubbin
Jun 1, 2018 • 108 min
Decluttering expert Tracy McCubbin shares about her experiences being raised by a hoarder and how she helps clients part with their stuff. She and Paul get into the topics of materialism, cheap-goods consumerism, compulsive shopping and using “stuff”,…
Unspeakable Trauma to Meth Psychosis - Todd G
May 25, 2018 • 130 min
Paul’s friend shares about the co-dependent relationship with his longtime lover that ended in tragedy & Todd’s PTSD, porn & meth binges tailspinning into a showdown on his roof vs a SWAT team, before finally having a moment of clarity and getting his…
Best Of: Tiffany Haddish
May 18, 2018 • 131 min
One of our best episodes - recorded in 2015 before she was famous (Girl’s Trip, Saturday Night Live) - Tiffany opens up about her horrific family life, being shuttled around the foster care system and finally finding her voice doing comedy. The full…
Singer-Songwriter Chris Smither
May 11, 2018 • 73 min
The blues-based singer-songwriter who has written for Bonnie Raitt and other artists started out in the epicenter of the NY/Boston folk scene among contemporaries like Bob Dylan and Eric Von Schmidt reminisces about his career, the art of songwriting,…
Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday Returns
May 4, 2018 • 122 min
The hilarious author and uber-popular Tweeter @SoSadToday delves into subjects covered in her latest book, The Pisces (and reads from it). She and Paul talk about romantic obsession, sexual compulsion that leads to shame and regret; the overall search to…
Andy Richter
Apr 27, 2018 • 123 min
The comedic actor, improviser and longtime Conan O’Brien sidekick opens up about his battles with depression, worry, anxiety and sadness and how he has learned to manage them with talk therapy. He also shares about the illusion he held that acquiring…
Nora McInerny - Live in Minneapolis
Apr 20, 2018 • 149 min
The host of the Terrible Thanks For Asking podcast and author of It’s Okay To Laugh (Crying is Cool Too) sits down with Paul before a live audience to talk about how she processed (and still is) the grief of losing family members and dealing with her…
Cy Amundson Live in Minneapolis
Apr 13, 2018 • 74 min
The actor/comedian (Comedy Central Presents: Cy Amundson) opens up in front of a live audience about his OCD, anxiety and how the loss of his teenage sister affected him and his family. For more on Cy visit www.cycomedy.com www.twitter.com/cyamundson
Judging Our Feelings - TED Talk Speaker Dr. Susan David
Apr 6, 2018 • 107 min
The Harvard Medical School research psychologist’s recent TED Talk “The Gift and Power of Emotional Courage” went viral a month or so ago and here she sits down with Paul to talk about the human habit of judging ourselves for our feelings, how it affects…
Polyamory - Daisy & Cory
Mar 30, 2018 • 150 min
Daisy (with Cory for support) shares about her emotionally absent parents, Taiwanese culture, her anxiety, need to control, fear of making mistakes, struggling to find a sense of self and the imprint left on her by pleasing her emotionally…
Workaholism & Anxiety - Jordan Harbinger
Mar 23, 2018 • 134 min
The hilarious, self-depreciating podcaster (Jordan Harbinger Show) and ex-lawyer opens up about a recent professional crisis that left him with extraordinary anxiety, insomnia and panic attacks. He talks about often feeling like a fraud, (also known as…
My Brain Hates Me - Jessie Dean Altman
Mar 16, 2018 • 118 min
The writer (Lady Parts, The Onion) and dog walker shares about the lifelong battle she has had with her brain and emotions including: Intrusive thoughts, OCD, treatment-resistant depression, procrastination, self-judgment, and anger. She shares how REBT…
The Devil & James Bond - Michael Cannan
Mar 9, 2018 • 108 min
Paul’s support group friend, recovering heroin addict and author shares about his upbringing on the Isle of Mann (UK) and the shame and anxiety he felt about secrets in his family and within himself. He opens up about his psychosis that convinced him that…
CC Sheffield aka Daisy - Fame, Money & Abuse
Mar 2, 2018 • 92 min
Originally recorded while speaking under the pseudonym “Daisy” to protect her from her abusive ex-fiancee, CC, a successful model, DJ and actress describes her relationship with a wealthy, powerful and manipulative drug addict/alcoholic who had turned…
Heartbreak - Dr. Guy Winch
Feb 23, 2018 • 115 min
Renowned author & TedTalk speaker Dr. Guy Winch talks about different kinds of heartbreak, especially the ones some people minimize (loss of pets or non-married breakups). He gets into the science of how our brains react to loss, how we experience this…
Horror & Beauty - Witnesses to a Shooting
Feb 16, 2018 • 93 min
Paul is joined by two support group friends, Jonathan & Mukunda, to talk about their experience 3 weeks earlier when a shooting victim stumbled into their meeting and began bleeding out at their feet. Jonathan and Mukunda, both sober and ex-criminals,…
Female Sex Addiction - Erica Garza
Feb 9, 2018 • 110 min
The Salon contributor and author of Getting Off shares about her sex addiction, which began at age 12 after discovering masturbation as a way of soothing her anxiety and not having to deal with her feelings but over time escalated into riskier and more…
The Dark Grip of OCD - Dr Jenny Yip
Feb 2, 2018 • 86 min
She battled OCD as a child but when she gave birth to twins it gripped her again despite being a trained psychologist who specializes in…yes…OCD. A great episode about the power fear, dark thoughts and shame in fueling OCD but also the power of getting…
Food Owns Me, Anger & Dad Issues - Jay Larson
Jan 26, 2018 • 145 min
The writer (HBO’s Crashing) and stand-up (Me Being Me) opens up about his dad abandoning his family when he was 2 years-old and how that has effected his view of the world, himself and now his children. He talks about his struggles with food, anger,…
Couple Troubles - Jen Elmquist LMFT
Jan 19, 2018 • 107 min
Couple’s therapist Jen Elmquist sits down with Paul and answers questions about the most common mistakes and hurdles couples face and offers advice on how to value your partner and relationship without devaluing yourself. There are no surveys in this…
Network Anchor Panic Attack - Dan Harris
Jan 12, 2018 • 129 min
Imagine having a panic attack live on-air while anchoring ABC news. That happened to Dan Harris in 2004. The Nightline anchor, Good Morning America Weekend Co-anchor, war correspondent and author (10% Happier) opens up about his history of anxiety,…
My Fair Junkie - Amy Dresner
Jan 5, 2018 • 125 min
The author (My Fair Junkie) details her jaw-dropping and often hilarious descent from a nice (but spoiled) Jewish girl from Beverly Hills to shooting coke into her neck, bottoming out on meth and sex and being assigned to a chain gang after…
Asperger’s, Nerd Culture & Anime - Luke Palmer
Dec 29, 2017 • 129 min
The young writer/director (2 Kawaii 4 Comfort) shares about the intersection of people on the autism spectrum (especially Asperger’s) and nerd culture especially anime. He opens up about his diagnosis as a child, different therapies his parents tried…
Born Into A Notorious Criminal Family - Nicole Y.
Dec 22, 2017 • 147 min
Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston underworld. Having seen and experienced unimaginable things, she found an outlet in music and finally…
Military PTSD & Sexism - Marc & Sonja Raciti
Dec 15, 2017 • 162 min
Marc and Sonja Raciti both served in the military; he as a medic, she as a psychologist. They talk about PTSD myths and the PTSD he struggles with from fearing for his life to seeing unspeakable carnage to having survivor’s guilt. She weighs in as his…
High School Tornado/Author Seamus Kirst
Dec 8, 2017 • 124 min
In a live show recorded in Oakland, the 26 year-old writer (Shitfaced) discusses the loving but strained atmosphere growing up and his teenage years attempting suicide, drinking his way to rehabs and an eating disorder. He shares about making peace…
The Absent Father Wound - Daria Polatin
Dec 1, 2017 • 119 min
The award-winning playwright, t.v. writer (Jack Ryan)and author (Devil in Ohio) opens up about feeling abandoned by her father and the effect it has had on how she views herself, her place in it and the conscious decision she has made to become the…
Alt Depression Treatments - Shane Mauss
Nov 24, 2017 • 134 min
The standup/podcaster (Here We Are podcast) shares about taking unconventional approaches to his battles with depression and hopelessness. He opens up about his kind but very religious and uncommunicative parents and the hometown where things weren’t…
Kelly’s Shame and Secrets
Nov 17, 2017 • 128 min
Growing up Kelly McCarron’s home life wasn’t chaotic or abusive but she still struggles mentally and emotionally. After filling out the show’s Shame and Secrets survey she reads it aloud, touching on the issues of self-esteem, the aftermath of being…
Success-Obsessed Parents & The Scapegoat Child
Nov 10, 2017 • 140 min
30 year-old Mary M. left America for Europe to escape not only an American culture that was wearing on her but a family where she was tired of being the scapegoat to her golden-child brother. An all-too-common scenario where her parents can only seem to…
#355 Afraid To Leave The House - Sam Harriman
Nov 2, 2017 • 103 min
Panic attacks, agoraphobia, anxiety and depression had brought Sam to a very dark place a few years ago and he decided he needed help. Bit by bit he began to see how his childhood and negative self-beliefs had to be re-examined. A new clarity on the…
#354 Surviving Suicide - Kelechi Ubozoh
Oct 27, 2017 • 141 min
The 32 year-old poet, mental health advocate and daughter of a Nigerian immigrant father and Brooklyn mother opens up to Paul about her emotional and mental turnaround after years of feeling suicidal and several times attempting it. She details the…
#353 Andy Kindler - OCD, ADD, Twitter Fights & More
Oct 20, 2017 • 95 min
Paul’s longtime friend, standup (Letterman) and actor (Everybody Loves Raymond) shares about his struggles with OCD, ADD and feeling the need to control people’s opinions about his behavior even after lashing out at someone. He talks about his…
#352 Caitlin Doughty: Death, OCD & Being a Mortician
Oct 13, 2017 • 132 min
The mortician, TED Talk speaker and author of Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, talks about her childhood OCD and fascination with death as a result of witnessing a tragedy, how she’d like to see the American funeral industry change and how death is…
#351 Fears, Loves, Filth & Mortality w Greg Behrendt
Oct 5, 2017 • 90 min
The comedian, co-author of He’s Just Not That Into You and longtime friend of Paul drops by to lighten his day up. They laugh at their fears, loves and thoughts about mortality and getting older. Check out Greg’s PODCAN podcast network Here is…
#350 Intrusive Thoughts OCD aka “Pure OCD” - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT
Sep 29, 2017 • 126 min
When Your Thoughts Cause You Obsessive Self-Judgement, Panic & Stress
#349 Emotionally Coercive Sex - Perfectionism - Dissociating
Sep 22, 2017 • 186 min
Paul’s support group friend Meredith opens up about being raised by parents who lacked a sense of privacy or sexual boundaries; being sexualized by her father, mother (who has a long history of “accidentally” showing her vagina) and step-mother in covert…
#348 Manhattan Party Girl - Fielding Edlow
Sep 15, 2017 • 128 min
Raised in financial privilege but emotional poverty, the actor/writer/standup reflects on her “don’t give a fuck” eating disorder, drug and alcohol years trying to stuff the real feelings of abandonment, not being good enough, anxiety, anger and…
#347 Paul Rust - Anxiety, OCD & Embarrassment
Sep 8, 2017 • 119 min
The actor/writer/comedian known for the Netflix show Love, the movie Inglourious Basterds and IFC’s Comedy Bang! Bang! opens up about his battles with anxiety, OCD, taking on other people’s emotions, people pleasing, wanting attention, shame, fear of…
#346 Plane Crash Survivor: Carol E Miller
Sep 1, 2017 • 128 min
The author (Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy) opens up in front of a live audience in Oakland about the years she abused herself through bad relationships, booze and sex before therapy and EMDR helped her confront her true feelings…
#345 Food, Porn, Shame, Vulnerability & Losing a Sibling - Matt Shepherd
Aug 24, 2017 • 90 min
Paul’s support group friend shares about recovery and battles with binge-eating, shame, compulsive exercise, not knowing what he looks like, porn addiction, love addiction, fear of leaving relationships, feeling like he “is enough”, growing up in a…
#344 If Only You Knew This Secret
Aug 18, 2017 • 82 min
YouTube personality Sarah Sterling is 26 and was obsessed with Harry Potter (and Disney) since day one. At a convention she met a singer who captivated her. He was 24 and she was 16. Looking back, she sees it as statutory rape and is processing that….
#343 British Therapist Louise M
Aug 11, 2017 • 114 min
Louise (a pseudonym) shares about the moment in her otherwise mostly happy childhood that things changed. She shares about the abuse at a posh Harry-Potteresque school when she was six by a headmaster who walked the dark halls with a torch; her…
#342 When Your Trauma Informs Your Turn Ons
Aug 4, 2017 • 97 min
Why do some people enjoy physical pain or become aroused by it? For Kal, the discovery came with a lot of complications; he was a young boy and it was at the hands of a powerful and sadistic pedophile Rabbi (Heshy Brier) who is now a fugitive living…
#341 80’s Childhood Shitshow! - Dana Eagle
Jul 28, 2017 • 133 min
Imagine getting gay hate mail from your own family. Or finding a letter where your parents talk about you in a way that confirms your worst fears. How does Bipolar 2 compare to having something like cancer? Comedian and author (How…
#339 I Wrote A Hit Now What?!! - Seth Swirsky
Jul 14, 2017 • 129 min
He’s authored Grammy-nominated hits for the biggest artists, put out his own albums, written best-selling books on baseball, and directed a documentary on the Beatles. And for as long as he can remember he has struggled with anxiety, panic…
#338 Dear Food: I Want To See Other People
Jul 7, 2017 • 155 min
Fat-shamed as a child by her mother and classmates, writer-performer Chelsea Frank, now 24, opens up about the complex role food plays in her life. She talks about her struggles with weight, self-hatred, bingeing and restricting, going to “fat…
#337 - Raised in Repression & BPD - Anne from Berlin
Jun 30, 2017 • 133 min
Creative and sensitive, born and raised in 1980’s communist East Germany by a dysfunctional family, Anne’s abuse was not dramatic, more like death by 1000 cuts. Bearing the brunt of being a first child and resented for her intelligence, she…
#336 Jealousy & Internet Affairs - Mila
Jun 23, 2017 • 149 min
What goes on in someone when they’re jealous, possessive, obsessive or need to create drama? Mila was born into a family where her parents “couldn’t live with/couldn’t live without each other” and she found herself as an adult becoming…
#335 From Hostile to Peaceful - JT
Jun 16, 2017 • 109 min
19 year-old JT shares about the crippling anxiety, panic attacks and fear of abandonment he tried to alleviate for years through being hostile and controlling (of course it backfired) before finally deciding to get help. He shares with Paul the…
#334 Abused By Her Therapist - Christina L
Jun 9, 2017 • 133 min
Christina L (a pseudonym) shares about learning to stand up for herself after an abusive rehab therapist preyed on her as she was getting sober and the confusion of not knowing what he was doing was wrong. She shares about her dysfunctional…
#333 - When Sex Abuse Victims Become Adults & Avoiding Help/Work Burnout - Katie Vernoy LMFT
Jun 1, 2017 • 129 min
LMFT therapist Katie Vernoy and Paul respond to listener questions around the topics of 1) How childhood sexual abuse affects the survivors when they become adults and 2) How can people avoid job or helping burnout. They talk about the specifics of…
#332 Obsessive & Secret World of Classical Musicians - Ben Turner
May 26, 2017 • 146 min
The Australian professional trombonist shares about the mental, emotional and logistical rigors of making a living as a classical musician and some insights into what drove him (and his peers) to such obsessive lengths. We get a peek behind the…
#331 The Worst Day of My Life - Rhonda Britten
May 19, 2017 • 166 min
Rhonda says “It took me 20 years to get thru that day” as she opens up about the event that changed her life forever when she was 14 years old. She talks about how it changed her view of God, herself and the world around her, sending her on a…
#330 Co-Dep & Boundaries - Dr. Natalie Feinblatt
Apr 30, 2017 • 122 min
Dr. Feinblatt shares her experience as a therapist in working with co-dependent clients; how is co-dependency defined, what are some characteristics and how can it be treated or managed? She also shares about the importance of codependents learning…
#329 My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward - Mark & Giulia Lukach
Apr 30, 2017 • 105 min
Rarely do we talk about the spouse of someone battling a serious mental illness. Mark and Giulia had never heard of Bipolar I with psychosis until she broke from reality well into their marriage. Taped in front of an audience in Oakland, they bare…
#328 - Crack, Fights & Trying to Find Love - Charlie King
Apr 28, 2017 • 107 min
Paul’s support group friend has led an astoundingly painful life especially in regard to his mother (schizophrenia, depression), father (workaholic, hoarder), and sister (drug addict). He describes his descent into drugs (crack), emotionally damaged…
#327 Leaving Domestic Violence - Jenna Brister
Apr 21, 2017 • 117 min
The comedian/storyteller (The Moth) shares about her whirlwind 86 day romance that led to a Vegas wedding to a man who soon turned into a man she didn’t recognize, leaving her in fear for her life. Jenna talks about her experience escaping from…
#326 I Was Born Afraid - Jenny Jaffe
Apr 14, 2017 • 137 min
The comedic writer/performer and mental health advocate who started www.projecturok.org shares about the tremendous support she received from her family when depression anxiety and OCD had her close to suicide by age 10, and even more despondent from…
#325 I Am The Worst Person Ever: Mike Levine
Apr 6, 2017 • 142 min
Self-Hate, ADHD, Kink, Cross-dressing, Body Dysmorphia, Shame
#324 Literally Pulling Her Hair Out From PPD - Jennifer Tracy
Mar 31, 2017 • 146 min
It wasn’t until she began to literally pull chunks of her hair out she knew she might be battling something out of her control; postpartum depression. She talks about her battles with cyclical depression starting at an early age, being an only child…
#323 Family Secrets & Hiding Depression - Patricia McKee
Mar 24, 2017 • 139 min
How does a family deal with its secrets? The PhD opens up about the inter-generational rage brewing beneath the surface of her extended family and the difficulty in trying to cope when favorites are played, a mother feels jealous of her daughter,…
#322 Being Trans in a Red State: Olivia Haidar
Mar 16, 2017 • 155 min
Myths and Truths on Being a Transgender Woman in 2017
#321 Herpes from Date-Rape: Laura J
Mar 9, 2017 • 179 min
Laura J. shares about contracting herpes by being date-raped and how she has navigated managing it logistically, sexually and emotionally with partners, including her husband. She was raised in an emotionally cold home by a psychiatrist father and…
#320 Fantasy & Love Addiction - Maia Akiva
Mar 3, 2017 • 152 min
Paul’s fellow support group friend shares about the huge role fantasy has played in her struggle to accept life; especially her love addiction. She talks about being unable to watch lesbian films in moderation (she is a lesbian) and how the CPTSD from…
#319 - I Worry I’m Unlovable - Pauly David
Feb 22, 2017 • 166 min
The co-host of YouTube’s Pauly & Monks show shares about feeling unlovable, not being a good enough partner, trying to always “fix” other people, having to be an adult in his family at nine, learning to equate money with love and being rejected by…
#318 I Can’t Stop Worrying! - Giulia Rozzi
Feb 17, 2017 • 145 min
The Moth Grand Slam winner, standup and podcaster (Hopefully We Don’t Break Up) shares about being raised by Italian immigrant parents who worried a lot and her “high school brain” that still worries about being left out or gossiped about. Follow…
#317 - Misophonia: Rage at Certain Sounds
Feb 10, 2017 • 159 min
35 year-old barista (and listener) Charlynn Schmiedt shares about having misophonia which is a “fight or flight” physical response to certain everyday sounds, such as gum chewing, throat clearing etc. and the complications and misunderstanding that…
#316: Kevin Allison on Owning Your Weirdness & Flaws
Feb 3, 2017 • 152 min
The podcaster (RISK!) and sketch actor (The State) talks about learning to “own his weirdness”. From being a gay kid in a conservative town to being the black sheep in The State he has battled the paralysis and fear of not being perfect or even…
#315 Jenny R - Raised in Wealth, Sadness & Anxiety
Jan 27, 2017 • 165 min
The anxious only child of a drunk/rager mom and a passive dad shares about her family’s combination of material wealth and emotional ignorance/poverty. She talks about her fear of “just being” instead of always “doing”, including triathlons & rock…
#314 - Working With Sexually Violent Predators: Renee G-M
Jan 20, 2017 • 141 min
The 40 year-old public administrator talks about “losing her humanity” being assigned to work on a criminal defense unit on behalf of sexually violent predators and the anxiety, panic and breakdowns that followed. She also talks about her…
#313 Neal Brennan
Jan 13, 2017 • 152 min
The writer and director of Inside Amy Schumer, co-creator of Chapelle’s Show and standup comic (3 Mics coming soon on Netflix) talks about being one of ten kids raised by a violent alcoholic father and his struggles today with trusting his feelings…
#312 Why Am I A Mess? My Parents Loved Me - Amanda Bloom
Jan 6, 2017 • 120 min
The 30 year-old freelance journalist and Pilates teacher doesn’t have anything dramatic to point to in her life, yet she has struggled to find her voice in life with bad relationships, eating disorders, depression, body dysmorphia, and intense fears…