coming out of fear

coming out of fear

paulsatchwill.com
I first came out when I was 18 shortly after moving to college. For seven years after that I experienced doubt that I would every be happy. Denial that God would give me such a burden. Pain at the thought that things would never get better and fear that I would never be accepted for who I am. But now, I no longer experience those agonizing emotions. In their place I have found confidence in who I was created to be, joy in the life I have built, and hope that my story can make a difference. This four-part series explores my path to healing. Read along at paulsatchwill.com


4: the hero
Feb 3, 2019 • 9 min
“I have no road map for this journey, but I think I can gauge my success by the fruit this life is bearing. The conversations, the messages and phone calls, the opportunities to share my story are all mile markers that I’m making my way in the right…
3: the summer
Jan 27, 2019 • 12 min
“with hands shaking, heart pumping, and mind racing, I pressed post. And just like that I had just announced to over 2500 people that I am gay.” The summer of 2018 was an incredible time of growth in my life. But that growth didn’t come without a fight.…
2: the help
Jan 20, 2019 • 9 min
I knew that therapy was what I needed, but it was far from what I’d wanted. Next only to fear, pride had made a comfortable home in my mind and controlled many of my decisions. I was proud that no one had unlocked the inner rooms of my mind that contained…
1: the fear
Jan 12, 2019 • 8 min
I have always been a creature of fear. My fear was so vast, so colorless, and so consuming that I could not separate it from myself. I was afraid of not being social enough, of disappointing my parents, and of being out of control. As I aged and grew into…